So much for holding up. I'm such a hypocrite. So much for "I get it."
While scanning my Facebook wall for encouraging posts to share with someone who is struggling, I came across posts from those who were my friends. And pictures.
And it was like the knife I've been working so hard to take out of my heart was just jabbed back in there.
And now a rush of emotional pain has taken over.
And I'm sitting here, tears streaming down my face. And I have just tried to tell you in posts that the resurrection is bigger than my problems.
Well, I guess it is... The familiar hymn is now running through my head.
I know that my Redeemer lives
What comfort this sweet sentence gives..
He lives to silence all my fears
He lives to wipe away my tears
He lives to calm my troubled heart.
He lives all blessings to impart.
Yes, there is that. There will still be tears. But my Redeemer is here to wipe them away.
He lives for me. I get it now.
You DO get it, Dylan. You KNOW it - if you didn't you wouldn't be writing about it - it's just that's it's hard for us to apply it to our lives all the time. 'Getting it' and 'living by it' are different things. I mean, come on, you said in your last post that the disciples and the women at the tomb didn't get it. And they were THERE - they'd actually WITNESSED everything. But THEY still didn't get it. Give yourself a break!
ReplyDeleteThen Jesus told him, “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." - John 20:29