The Heat Is On

"The hotter the fire, the stronger the steel."

Someone posted that as their Facebook status a few days ago, and I really like it. I've heard the analogy to my situation to the production of iron/steel before, but I've not heard it phrased quite like that.

To make strong iron, it has to be hammered, and fired, and go through a rough rigorous process.

But, the result is beautiful. Firm, strong steel/iron that stands the test.

Right now, things are really hot. I don't know if it's possible to turn the temperature any hotter. I'm also taking quite a beating. I'm getting nailed and hammered, and it's so hot.


But, I am hoping that the result coming out will be a strong, beautiful piece of steel.

I am hoping this experience sets me up for far greater things in the future.

I recently read in a book of someone's personal account of depression that they "wouldn't give up their experience with the illness for the world"- yesterday I wrote about a cafeteria friend of mine, and she said her struggles (far worse than mine) have changed who she is and she wouldn't change that.

If you asked me right now, "Would you give up your illness or change your experience with the illness?" I would have to answer with a resounding YES! I would give anything to make this terrible experience go away. And I mean anything. But, I know that is not possible.

So I guess I just have to keep pushing through the heat and the fire. Perhaps someday I will be able to look back on the experience and say "I wouldn't give up my experience for anything." I hope that is the case. I hope this wasn't all for nothing. 

By the way, do you remember the elephant? It's no longer an elephant. More like a gorilla now. Seems to get smaller every day. :)  Maybe soon it will not be a gorilla, but a flea. :)

PS- Today is self-injury awareness day. "Talk about it, reach out, ask for help, or continue to celebrate your recovery. We're in this together."  Psalm 118:24. Celebration!!!