I tried.
I tried to apologize, but it wasn’t enough.
I tried.
I tried to move on, but you’re still stuck in the past.
I tried.
I tried to show you I’m feeling better but you refuse to believe it.
I tried.
I tried to pick up the pieces and move on but you aren’t ready.
I tried.
I tried to offer my sincerest words but your ears were deaf to hearing them.
I tried.
I tried to be a good friend, but in your eyes I failed.
I tried.
I tried to forget about all the lies you fed me for the past four months, but they still ring through my head.
I tried.
I tried not to feel betrayed by your promises, but a loss is a loss and it hurts.
I tried.
I prayed.
I am praying.
I am praying for you.
I pray for you several times every day.
What more can I do?
I am growing weary.
And I'm weary enough as it is because of the illness.
I am letting God take over.
But He can only do so much.
The rest, my friends, lie in you.
Oh Dylan, I'm so sorry you're being treated like this. The only thing I can think of is that it's likely to be very hard for people to be sure things are different. Not that they were right to leave you in the first place. But I guess if they felt they had their reasons, it was too hard or whatever they felt, it's probably just hard to be sure that's changed. If they are friendships that you want back, I would say persevere. Know though that it doesn't have to be immediate (however much we want things to be immediate) but its in His time. Like you said, give it to God.
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