In counseling, and with a few people I am communicating with, we're talking a lot about patience and understanding.
I tend to get the two tangled together. And there is a big difference between them.
I like to think that I've demonstrated a HUGE amount of patience this semester, and within the last 8 months.
I mean, after all, I was in a wheelchair for 10 weeks, walker for 6, and with a cane for 4. I had to be patient for my brain to reconnect with my body and my walking ability to come back.
I had to be patient while I waited for a psychiatrist appointment to open up.
Then I had to be patient while I waited for the medication to kick in.
Now I'm being patient as my foot heals- the pain has gotten a little bit better, but I still don't like walking with this big clunky boot.
And I'm sure my patience wasn't perfect. It never will be. Because, I'm not perfect.
But I know somebody who is.
Jesus is perfect, and with Him, He brings and calms a sense of patience to troubled hearts.
As far as understanding, I guess I've come to terms with the fact that some things I may never understand. At least, not until I am with God.
In the mean time, I need to keep this attitude (Thanks to a friend for sharing this in an e-mail):
-Is God in charge? Yes.
-Do tough things happen? Yes.
-Do we get scared? Yes.
... Is God in charge? YES!!!
Yes. As I continue to wrestle with some inner struggles and seek patience, may that always be the reminder in my heart.
GOD IS IN CHARGE. Not me.
Blessings:
-Getting to share a shift with my favorite coworker again next semester!
-Raiding my mentor's book collection- and getting to over the next few weeks for reading material!
-"You're a sponge for knowledge!"
-I "liked" someone's Facebook status and got this for a response:
"2. My first impression of you: Good taste in books, great smile.
3. What I like about you: You seem so easy-going, and that brightens my day. "
3. What I like about you: You seem so easy-going, and that brightens my day. "
-Although I hate giving them, good-bye hugs. It's comforting to know you will be missed.
-"We'll write lots of letters this summer!"
God, grant me patience, and strength. Thy will be done. Amen.
You're so right - you've demonstrated so much patience this year! It doesn't seem fair that you keep having to do it. But you know what? God wouldn't let you go through it if you couldn't handle it. Hopefully, the worst of the having-to-be-patient is over for you. But if not? YES! God is so in charge!!! Keeping hanging on Dylan, you're doing so well :) x
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