Not Just A Last Resort

I'm mad at myself.

Honestly, before this all happened, my prayer life was no where near spectacular- in fact, it was non existent. I had the mentality of "I've got this God, but thanks."

And then my life was totally shaken up- and I learned my life completely depended on God.

And the last few days, I've been so wiped out and overwhelmed, I went to bed without praying. It's not that my prayer life is non-existent, I still prayed while driving, in the shower, before meals, but it seemed to happen that my most focused, intentional prayer time was before bed.


I know Summer break has started- but that does not mean a break from prayer. Because, I'm going to be honest, these last few days have been chaotic and overwhelming as I am trying to get my life in order again, but that is no excuse for not praying.


So, God, I'm really sorry. I know my focus needs to be always on you- not just when things seem bad. 


Life is fragile. Handle with prayer.


Blessings:
-Lie ins for the last two days


-Seeing family


-Painting shelves


-Building a bookshelf


-Piecing my room back together

-Making a new recipe for a raspberry strawberry fruit smoothie

-Healthy grocery shopping

-Steak dinner with grandparents

-Played in a church with a great worship service. Another organist was in the congregation. This is what she posted to Facebook shortly after:
Wonderful church service tonight! I felt like I was in a Cathedral. You rocked it Dylan!...  He does a DYNAMITE job on the organ. I think he needs to give me some pointers! 


(I hope that doesn't come across as bragging- but it was a blessing to see that! To God be the glory!)


Time for sleep.