But...

Wow. Thank you all again for your kind comments about that poem. I shared it with some people today, and several people who know about the situation personally teared up, which, in turn, made me shed a few tears as well. I was glad to share it and touch people today- as I've said before, sharing isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign of strength. 


I am going to write about my recurring nightmares sometime. Just not today. Last night was one of the worst, as I was screaming in terror and woke the neighbors up (they didn't come check on me, but they did make note of it this morning). I do remember screaming as I woke up, shaking. I wish they would go away. 


But as I was laying there, I started singing hymns to distract myself and put me back to sleep. (Which I do regularly). 


And a train of thought started going through my mind... It went something like this (I was speaking to my illnesses, verbalizing some of my thoughts. I'm not crazy. It helped.)


You can rob me of my walking abilities, 
But I still found my way around.


You can rob me of my smile,
But my heart will always sing for joy.


You can rob me of my sociability,
But that doesn't stop others from coming to me.


You can rob me of my concentration,
But my focus will always be on the cross of Christ.


You can rob me of my friends on earth,
But I will always have a friend in Jesus. 


You can rob me of the ability to enjoy,
But that doesn't stop me from trying.


You can rob me of my energy,
But that doesn't stop me from doing things I love.


You can rob me of my vision for the future, 
But that doesn't stop me from striving toward my dream.


You can rob me of my will and desire,
But thad doesn't stop me from attending classes.


You can rob me of my confidence,
But I will always have a spirit of hope.


You can fill my head with doubt,
But my faith will always stand strong.


You can try and win me over,
But I am the victor in this battle. 


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Teachers make schools great; teachers work to open students' minds to ideas, knowledge and dreams; teachers keep American democracy alive by laying the foundation for good citizenship; teachers fill many roles, as listeners, explorers, role models, motivators and mentors; and teachers continue to influence us long after our school days are only memories. TODAY IS NATIONAL TEACHER DAY. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO! 


As Patricia Polacco said, "Every teacher is a hero."


Yes. I look forward, in one year, to begin a career where I open the minds and hearts of young children, instilling citizenship and passion for Christ in each and every one of their hearts. 


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Blessings:
-Completed my one and only actual final exam


-I got returned the large 20 some page research page project, and when I opened the folder, I saw the feedback from the instructor that read "One of the best projects. A+"- (And other various comments throughout the paper). 


-Haircut today! I like it!


-This is not going to sound like a blessing, but it really made me and 2 others laugh, so I count it as good- On the way out of the cafeteria, some girl managed to drop a glass of water on me, and it soaked my legs and my walking boot. Then, I slipped and nearly fell in the puddle it left. I think the girl felt so bad she wanted to cry, but I was laughing.


-Tomorrow after 10:00 AM I will have completed this semester! It has been by far (even though I was in the wheelchair last semester) the most difficult semester and time of my life I have endured- but as of tomorrow morning, I can say "I DID IT! I MADE IT THROUGH!" I will definitely be celebrating and be very proud of myself.